I was so desperate wife, a disappointed employee and I don't know what to be called on this emotion am feeling now. I was so sad of so many things in me, to the extend that I feel I really don't have to be, weird? but that's the way it is.
Here's why.....
I filed my leave (aw! I just mentioned it with my boss) for my Polycystic workout (in preparation for my pregnancy). My OB prescribed me medicine that would cost for almost P150/each. That I have to take two tablets per day for five days. I am not complaining anyway, I just want you guys to realize the amount of money I spent for this work out plus the stress of wanting these cysts to be worked out. So, go back to the leave issue. Rhea and I are both known for my work, so happens that when am on leave she can take care of my loads in behalf of me (work counterpart). But for some sensible reason, she had her leave on the same date where my OB requested me to take the transv procedure, this was scheduled 7 days after my last doses of tablets (transv procedure is to be done to make sure that the medicines are functioning better for my hormones).
Sad part, since I nor Rhea should be present on our working area, my boss should reject one of our leaves. Another sad part, Rhea announced her leave before I announce mine. But anyway, that's not the issue I want to emphasize here, because either way nobody among us are willing to turn down the filed leave, and I have no right to ask Rhea to turn down her leave as well. A sad part again, I still understand my boss, because that's the company policy and it is not necessary for the two of us to be absent.
My action plan....
I consulted my dear friend hubby about the situation. He advised me to ask my OB first if it is necessary to do the transv procedure on the 7th day. So then, I decided to be more quiet on work, not because am mad to Rhea nor to my Boss, because I honestly understand both of their sides. So yeah, I finally decided to ask my OB (tru text message, yeah! text message, my OB is so generous that she always reply to her patient.) to ask her about the 7th day issue for transv. She just replied, "Okay, eh kung hindi pwede sa sched mo eh.. okay narin".
I am still undecided now of which one should I prioritize. Though my OB said that it is okay to do the procedure on the 8th day or on 6th day after my last medicine intake, still I feel anxious of what if the best result can be seen during the scheduled day which is on the 7th day. Honestly, during this time in my life that suddenly my work and my personal life are being drifted....I want to quit working (promise!). I know that this might be stupid to some of few, for thinking that I would resign to my promising work I have now. But I guess there are no most important than having a baby and a happy family, after all, that's all am asking (sob).
But for all of these thoughts, the only thing I can hold on with is to my GREAT GOD up above. I know that everything happens for a reason. So, whatever happens or should I say whatever decision I made, I know that God knows how to handle things on me. For that, I am eventually feeling better, hihi I still need to cross my fingers for that.
PS:
... dami ko palang nasabi, ang haba ng post ko (hihi)
