GT: First Boyfriend

As as I have revealed on my First Kiss entry, Gabriel Damian (Gatoy) is my First Boyfriend. I am 14 then when he was 16. He was introduced to me by my childhood friend Ate Anna who happens to have a boyfriend in which Gatoy's friend. He courted me for almost a year and we lasted only in 3 months.Gatoy is a very gentleman boyfriend then, he used to give me want I want, lol (that time that's my interpretation of being a gentleman - giving what I wanted, bwahaha) When I said am not in the mood he just kept quiet and wait until my mood is okay, I had a good relationship with him, in fact I don't remember any bad memories between us. We even broke up serenely and no bitterness inside. We both hurt, yes!!! but still were both wishing a good luck for each other. I'm happy living my life with Popoy now and were getting married next year, but still I am proud to say that Gatoy is still there for me as friend. We had maintained our good relationships for a long years and still considering our happy moments as a good friends. We have decided to ended up our relationship in a mature way, though young then, but still become friends otherwise and laughing what we had before, hahaha my tantrums and everything, him - for being the "Maginoo pero medyo bastos" boyfriend, haha. He is now married with 1 pretty girl and 1 on going baby boy and am happy for him. Gatoy is one of my reasons of keeping my relationship with Popoy grows better everyday. Because I have learned how to grasp a good relationship with my past. I am not saying that I am a perfect girlfriend, am still learning. But at least I know how to deal with my emotions, whew!!! thanks God for that. ahhahaha

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Thanks te niko for this Badge...Best best ka ever...

mwah mwah

my WITTY job appraisal

Immediately, after being graduated in college that was way back 2006, I have been motivating to become competitive in terms of having a good vision in achieving a good job. I have been trigger off by my parents to have a good and stable career, that according to them its for my own sake. By then, I have gave all my finest blast to have that stable and a good career, I know I have done my paramount knowledge to gain that. But then again, for the past 3 years of working and striving so hard, it seems like my efforts are not appreciated at all or it was the other way around. Its either I love my work, I totally appreciates me co-workers, I love the benefits but then, they don't love me (harr) haha - bitter??? hahaha. Or, they are very much in love with me but definitely the feeling is not mutual, I don't love my co-workers or even their company as well. Every time I tried to be contented on a particular company and or responsibilities, it ends up looking for a better one. Always asking for more improvement, constantly saying "I want this, I want that, What if....." I have been in 4 different companies and yet nothing seems to be perfect and fit for me.

Until now am still determined to get the job for me, and I would say that this time every thing falls into places. Just recently, I have got my performance appraisal. And it was unexpected approach for me, though my immediate superior (Ms. Ellen) gave some hints on me about my appraisals, but still the whole picture was blinded out on my knowledge, and here are the witty scenario. Approaching unto Shacho's (President's) office my heart beats sounded blag...blag..blag loudly, and found myself practicing my greetings for them to complement and give me a good results, lol.... Then, finally I saw their faces, all their sad faces. I was disappointed to see them all in that outlook, they don't even smile at me nor great me a pleasant afternoon. Shocks, I was so confused, so anxious on that very moment. Ma'am Ellen (My immediate Boss) approached to start that session, and she told me "Sorry Ferry," when I heard that word I felt very weak, am so ill that I don't even want to hear her next remarks. Then she followed with "As much as I wanted to promote you, but Shacho didn't satisfy with your performance, etc." I felt my tears suddenly fell down on my red cheeks, but I don't want them to see me crying, so I wiped it out instantly. I've gazed unto Shacho's (President) eyes as if asking him why? but then, I received no response, instead he told me to ask Ms. Ellen about it. Am so displeased that moment, I want to cry out loud and howl at them. I thought I have been a good employee, what's wrong with me? does they really don't feel me? How about all my efforts? I love working with them. I am about to leave when Ms. Ellen told me "Nakakainis ka naman eh, ang tagal mong mag react"

haha, it was a gag moment, a shaggy dog scenario for me. They planned to trick me, OMG!!!!! all tears came out on my eyes... I was sobbing the whole moment of my appraisal, they were crying out too, lol... And we are all crying haha except for Shacho, he was laughing all the time, harr. It was definitely a mission accomplished for him - to make me cry...asarrrr. Upon reading my strength and weaknesses, I was sobbing and laughing at the same time, lol. And Shacho told me that my performance is okay, and I cried even more when He said that good thing about me is I can create a good mood in the company. OMG!!!! lol. I love them all for doing that, lol special thanks to Mami jane for the correct interpretation of my words.

I cried, I was hurt but then I came out on that office happy and winner, lol...amp....

She inspires me until now!!!!!

Last night I used to asked myself, who really influences me to appreciate the blogging environment? for I found myself addicted unto it??? Then found out that..... Last year my beloved cousin EDDAH died, she is only 18 years old then, though young she gained lots of experiences. We used to call her Lovely, as her attitudes described itself, she is really a brat girl, lol.. she wants to explore everything no matter what it takes. A very loving ate to her 2 siblings, though I didn't see her totally grew up with her siblings I knew she was a loving one. She's the only child of Auntie Pia (dad's younger sister) until she reached 5 years old. They have been together that long, only the two of them together, that's why I understand how hard on my Auntie's part losing Lovely. Year 2004 when Auntie Pia marries a Filipino US citizen and decided to migrate in US to have their lives together with her new husband. I don't want to put my conclusion that because of that marriage Eddah died, because I merely believe that everything has a reasons and everything happened was planned. Anyway, I would say that Lovely inspires me to do blogging. To have my simple diary in web. I've read her blogs from her first entry to her last post. And reading her stories makes me cheer up to do my personal site also. Even her youtube account, I love all those videos. In her blood really pours a true Villahermosa clan, lol... I admire her for having a wonderful voice and a bit of jealous on it, lol. But am forever be a proud ate Nene for her. ayy naku, my tears suddenly come into sight... I'm still affected, I mean everybody are still affected. We have been together for a long time, and I've spent my happiest childhood moments with Eddah and Auntie Pia. Eddah is a very cheerful baby then, she loves to be at the center of all attentions. She grew up with everything on her, lots of barbies, beautiful clothes, love and attention. she has everything then. Until they've decided to migrate in US, it seems like everything falls back into reverse. If only I knew all her burdens, all her worries, all her fears. I will ask her every single details of her pain, then I will tell her how much she mean to us until she will feels okay and retrieve. But then again all of us botched to do that. I guess she would have been committed suicide in the first place. But then again, as I've said everything was planned. And I am quiet sure that it was just a poignant emotions that leads her to do that. She was so depressed and deluded, every time I've got a chance to read her blogs I feel busted because I really felt the burden on her, I miss her so much... A week after she died, every night am trying to communicate her through my dreams, but as much as I wanted to be with her even for an hour, she doesn't appears. Maybe she didn't want to be spanked, hehe..

miss those eyes

Until we meet again Love, may you rest in peace and full of love in the hands of God. Please watch us over, we love you Eddah.Send my regards to Angel Gabriel and to Bro as well. And I hope you will find your time to read this blog and make some hops....hehehe

thank you for inspiring me, eddahMARIE

GT: My unmarked Cheeks

Ate Niko is right when she said that the most hardest theme on GT is FIRST KISS entry. And I can't believe that I'm doing this now, lol though I asked Popoy's consent on this post and he said a BIG NO promptly I still typing my entry.... hahaha.. hard headed!!! toinks!!!

Anyway, my first kiss happened in a dark place, lol, wherein only me and the person who kissed me are there... lol, just kidding!!! I had my first kiss when I had my first boyfriend. He is Gabriel Damian, lol... (complete name) haha.. I used to call him GATOY... (I am laughing out loud, really laughing while typing this.... I don't know why???)OMG.... okay, serious....

Here are the scenarios, I was 14 then when he was 16, he courted me for almost a year and we lasted only in 3 months, lol.. (not meant to be.) I was very young at that time, young by age as well as in emotions, very week, very clumsy... But because of curiosity, I already had my first kiss at a very young age. He kissed me during the time we're officially became boyfriend and girlfriend. He pinched me a kiss on my unmarked cheek immediately when I gave him my YES answer. It was unexpected moves from him, he said, he was vigor by his emotions, lol, and I'm more shocked than him, that leads me to pause for a while and forget about my parents as well as their words of wisdom, lol...

Nonetheless, it was a happy thoughts remembering my past regardless of whether it was good or bad. The thing for me is, I've learned something and enjoyed it even in my imperfections.

HAPPINESS of having a MARRIED MAN

Questions that running through my mentality..... What kind of happiness does a women gets if they're in love with a married man?Very erroneous... tsk tsk tsk... but come to think of it... What's really behind on it, beyond those hide and seek relationships. Does they really happy on that scenario? oH!!! I don't think so... I wrote this because of the recent controversie according to Kris Aquino and to those who are having their happiness to a married man.

According to some married couples who have their relationship built with honesty and true love, one of the secrets of having a successful marriage is by treating your partner as if they were number two (mistress/other lover). By giving flowers, dating, talking nonsense and then eventually laughing.Funny right? According to them, couples who spent their time mostly in doing what was necessary may results to cheating.... No extra special, no fresh just an old scenario. Falling in love with a married man, not only seriously damages the innocent spouse, including children, eventually, in time, yourself. Your eyes will open up to see the whole picture. And, it is never a pretty one.When he seems to be Mr. Right, he is. In front of you, that is. He will say everything you want to hear, flatter you, wine and dine you, buy you little gifts to "show you how much you mean to me." He will paint a picture of his home life as being so unbearable (where he is never appreciated and understood), that you soon will agree, his wife is a witch....even though you don't know her. Keep in mind, Mr. Right never flatters his wife, wines and dines her or buys her little presents. Instead, he tells her lies (to explain where he has been, where his money is going, and his secretive ways). All of a sudden he has taken an interest in how he looks. Mr. Right now shaves on the weekends, dresses more neatly, has no time for his children, due to "other business". etc... afterwards.... Mr. Right promises something that a mistress would definitely longed for..... a marriage.... huh!!! what the hell!!! a fake marriage... fraud...foolishness....That the naive spouse will live their own life with their children and both of you live happily ever after... haahhaha!!!! wake up!!!

And because you are totally blinded by the love of that "Mr. Right" you are so excited, so pleased... overwhelmed by the promises of Mr. Right. You will expect something that definitely won't happen. Because I'm proud to pronounce these that "Mr. Right won't ever... as in ever leave his family for you" constantly honest reality.......well, if they will, not all his time and attention will not be yours for the rest of your life, nor his resources and love either. If you can swallow these set up then.... GOOD LUCK!!!

If you find yourself falling in love with a married man, run away...dont walk away. He is just not worth it. You deserved better. Don't invest for something that from the start will not be benefited at all. I hope my dear friend will read this..... I'm made this for you, you know who you are. eheheh...

I've paid the expenses

Way back 2002, I was shaken by the news that Popoy shared to me. He said that he has a possibility of not pursuing college by next semester. It shivers me knowing that we might not able to see each other and might have a possibility of breaking up due to diverse in terms of focus and priorities. I will be focusing on my studies and he will be working throughout the days. But because I am a good girl friend.. lol, I will not permit that scenario to be happened. Instead, I’ve helped him to look for a job, to help his parents at least to minimize their burden even for his everyday expenditures. We had been walking all throughout the weeks to search for his possible working place. And yes, I walked with him all the time, lol to show my support!!! Lol.. And my FIRST DATE happened during the time when Popoy got his first job. Lol.. Everything is first on that day…

I had my first date on October 27, 2002, and spent it with…… Popoy. We claimed that wonderful moment at Mc Donalds Walter Mart Dasma, lol immediately after he got his job. That was not a romantic date ever but it made me feel romantic because we had a vast of time and we had a good conversations. And by that, am tagging that day as my FIRST DATE. He was too hungry that time because he took his interview and exams for almost 4 hours. I am smiling then while looking at him eating and then he was thrilled to share his experiences during the whole interview, lol he was just a little kid that time. Just like ate niko, I’ve paid all the expenses. But bear with him because he just got his job that time, lol…

yearning to give him COMFORT

Last year I did not prepare something special for Popoy’s birth day except for a simple dinner. We haven’t spent much time together because his birth day falls on Wednesday and we’re both committed to do professional bits. I just gave him a letter and that thing makes him happy, hmp…. I guess!!!! Now since the days are fast approaching, I got alarmed knowing that I only have 2 weeks more to go before Popoy’s day (February 4) and yet nothing seems to be organized. I have series of plans on how to surprise him on his day, but then again because am quiet demanding with my work now I’ve never got a chance to make it systemize. But because I’m very enthusiastic to bolt him out of the blue and to make him happy on his day, my vision for that is still on up…lol… And I’m about to complete my sets of gifts for him… Thanks God He sent me an angels to lead me in Robinsons Sta. Rosa, lol.. Finally… after searching it for about a week… I’ve found it…..I’ve got it…. Despite the fact that it was simple but am quiet sure that he will like it, he will definitely like it.. whew!!! I’ve done all my knowledge and effort just to have these things….so hard….promise!!!. All those stuffs are about to give him comfort during his worn out days, during his exhausted hours and even during those minutes that he wanted to lighten up. By the way, I’ve chosen these stuffs because in almost 8 hours a day of standing and teaching, Popoy tells me that he got irritated on his feet and got a hard time walking. At least if he will have Foot kneader he will put his feet up on it, lol…. And he can rub down his arms and back during those times that he got bushed doing his lesson plan with the use of body kneader, lol…. And best of all, as Popoy always asks me to scratch his back that sometimes reasons of my impatience, for him not to look for someone who can scour up his backside; I’m giving him wooden back scratcher for him to do it alone. Hahaha… And lastly, I will append a bonus of bouquet of flowers to add some kilig factor and deliver it via LBC, lol…. Let those things do the talking.. I hope I can accomplish this surprises for my fiancé, and make him the happiest man ever exists. Advance Happy Birth day my dear Angel.

Recollection of my teenage SLAM BOOK

I need to revoke my mind for this month's topic in Girls Talk - "First Crush" lol. This time the spirit of my treasured slam book starts (thanks God I still have one on my drawer, lol). I must have it to remember who's really my first crush, of who is that chap who brought up my awareness to admire, lol.

While reading it and saw the name written on it, memories suddenly become visible. By the way, I will divulge it now, lol I feel like teenager again.. hahaha. Anyway he is Jonathan. I found him gentleman, honest and outspoken with regard to his feelings and attitudes. What you see is what you get. I remember he has a cute dimples and a cute lips. bwahaha... popoy will surely condemn this confession, lol... I was on grade 5 then, when Jonathan is on his 6th grade in elementary. He is my Kuya's classmate and buddies, that's why that time I used to volunteer when my mama asked someone to bring kuya's packed lunch on his room, lol.. to see him. hahaha... But I never seen him again after they have graduated elementary, until now. I even forget his face nor his attitudes. I've heard that he transferred another school and took secondary there, don't know where. sad :( lol...... Sigh, had a hard time remembering my first crush. Hope my other "FIRST" won't be harder than this. lol.... At least I know that I've been into teenage thing and infatuated once in my life. hahaha > proud???? lol.... Good luck!!!!

Countless Thanks 2009!!!!!

Year 2009 has been a good year for me. And I want to give all the praises and thanks to the Lord for allowing me to feel his love over this year. Thanks God for having blessed with a family of love and understanding. Thank you for having a father with a firm decision and yet a soft heart. Thank you for giving me a modest mother that full of staying power for all of us. Thank you for letting me feel the presence of my dear ate everytime we all need her. Thank you for the openhanded blessings you continuously sharing with her. Thank you for my Kuya, though his not here always due to his work. But still he make sure that he has moment to know all of the whereabouts of the family. And best, thank you Lord for giving all the angles to guide him. For letting him safe all the time. Thank you for my nephews Josiah and Arvie for creating a smile on me because of their tricks and naughty gestures. Those question and answer of Josiah and the ever history stories that added up to my knowledge, lol. And to my dear Arvie, that though he received more punishments to me he still kiss me and hug me to show his love and respect. Thank you Lord, you have gave me this wonderful family. Thank you to my work, for uplifting my spirit that one day I would able to find a good job and wonderful co-workers. Thank you Lord, really blessed with my work now. Thank you for my friends, for sharing your shoulder to me when I wanted someone. For sharing your ears to listen and thank you more for accepting me who Iam. For catching my grumpiness and craziness. And best, thank you for giving me the man of my life. Thank you Lord for letting me feel the happiness and a bountiful blessings more than I deserve. I know 2010 will be safe and sound for everybody, because I know you will be our protector all the time.